Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Sad.Depressed.Disappointed.Irritated

GYYYYYAAAAA!!!!! WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! I WANT TO STOP CRYING BECAUSE I'M SO FREAKING TIRED AND MY EYES ARE HURTING ALREADY! I had too much tears to cry for one day. Damn!!!

What is up with this day's events. A lot has happened. Some were nice and some were really down right disappointing. I couldn't believe that all of this happened in one day. What is wrong with the world?! I just had my Recollection and now I'm adding more sins to the ones I've already confessed. Omo! This is just bad but I have my reasons.

First, today we had our Recollection at the CEU Chapel. At first I wasn't in the mood to be in such a recollection but I guess I'll just have to endure it for the day. The day went well for the morning session. There were sharing and crying that happened amongst our class. It was indeed a moment to reflect and share to others the pain we are feeling right at that moment. I'm glad that I was able to open my problems to those who I'm not so close with. There were also realizations made.

During the afternoon session, the 4A students were already there after finishing their orientation at NCMH. There were also activities and more videos were shown to us. The one that touched me the most was the letter of our parents to us children. It was really touching because I realized a lot and I feel guilty of the things shown to us. We also had the chance to write a letter to God and it feels refreshing indeed.

During our lunch break, I received a text message saying Park Jaebeom of 2PM is quitting and leaving the group. When I received the text, I was really shocked and worried. At first I thought it was a joke but one by one the messages starts coming saying all the same things Park Jaebeom is leaving 2PM and will step down as their leader. All the while I couldn't even stop thinking about the news. Just because of an innocent mistake in the past, a person actually was able to make this decision to leave his group behind?! WTF!!!

PAST IS PAST. Can't you just forgive the guy? What did he know about Korea before coming there? Yes, I know he is part Korean but didn't you understand the part that he DID NOT GROW UP in Korea? Gosh. This is so freaking mad. Of course he will be in a state of culture-shock because America is different from Korea. He lived in a different environment. before coming to Korea. Why dig up all those past issues and make auch a big fuss out of it? Man, anti-netizens are mad. Isn't it enough already that the person apologized?! Fuck all those Anti-netizens who signed the suicide petition for Leader Jay. What a stupid idea. Go kill yourselves and don't ask others to kill themselves. If you hate 2PM so much then SHUT THE FUCK UP!!! I'm so freaking mad right now.

2PM...Hwaiting! PARK JAEBEOM, HOTTEST will not give up on you. Be strong! Don't give up! Saranghaeyo!